Dear friends,
There will be few words again today. The betrayal, malevolence and contempt I have been subjected to in my home since the early weeks of this year have made creative thinking almost impossible for the time being. I hesitated before putting those words down but I know my situation, however painful and frightening, is sadly a common one. True friends and family -and perhaps too an inner strength - have saved me from floundering and have reminded me on an almost daily basis that there is light at the end of this long, dark tunnel. I have trained myself to focus solely on love, light and goodness and to turn away from all demeaning thoughts and to remain steadfast in my relationship with those I hold most dear. There will be release from this intensely stressful time at the end of this month although I realise other challenges lie ahead. Whilst I am a sensitive and anxious woman I also remain a fighter.
I took the pictures below of Héloïse (who turns nineteen at the end of April) a few weeks ago under a steady drizzle. We chose this beautiful, rich colourway, Venetian, by Madelinetosh for her latest pullover; a pattern by Tin Can Knits called Prairie Fire: some of you might remember this version I made for Angélique last autumn? I look back on the hour spent here with her under the rain, surrounded by damp, blossoming trees with a quiet sense of joy and gratitude. Héloïse has been a steadfast source of kindness throughout these times. The least she deserves is a handknit pullover!
There will be few words again today. The betrayal, malevolence and contempt I have been subjected to in my home since the early weeks of this year have made creative thinking almost impossible for the time being. I hesitated before putting those words down but I know my situation, however painful and frightening, is sadly a common one. True friends and family -and perhaps too an inner strength - have saved me from floundering and have reminded me on an almost daily basis that there is light at the end of this long, dark tunnel. I have trained myself to focus solely on love, light and goodness and to turn away from all demeaning thoughts and to remain steadfast in my relationship with those I hold most dear. There will be release from this intensely stressful time at the end of this month although I realise other challenges lie ahead. Whilst I am a sensitive and anxious woman I also remain a fighter.
I took the pictures below of Héloïse (who turns nineteen at the end of April) a few weeks ago under a steady drizzle. We chose this beautiful, rich colourway, Venetian, by Madelinetosh for her latest pullover; a pattern by Tin Can Knits called Prairie Fire: some of you might remember this version I made for Angélique last autumn? I look back on the hour spent here with her under the rain, surrounded by damp, blossoming trees with a quiet sense of joy and gratitude. Héloïse has been a steadfast source of kindness throughout these times. The least she deserves is a handknit pullover!
And here is Héloïse in her very first minor television role in a French series most fittingly cast as an angel!
Warmest wishes to you all. I hope your spring is both peaceful and enjoyable.
Stephanie x
